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put a new song up. happier song bah..
lian ai ping lv. xuzhian&xuhuixin
today jus stayed at home. nth much

5th day n counting. haix.


28 ApR.
THX SIEW HUI! >.< thxthx.. if not for siew hui, i might hav caught a cold. for lending me ur pe t-shirt, for helping me dry my blouse! i tot if it was to rain, it wouldnt b THAT big, or mayb not rain at all!=) was wet. really wet i mean. shoes were wet. socks were wet[i mean wet as in i pull out, squeeze, water comes out, n it is not a drop or 2 drops.] skirt was wet. i'll rmb ......"e day i was wet"
haix.stress.family problems.i wish it would stop. USTOPBEINGRUDE!

`recovering well. i start to understand y u did this. but this still had to b done huh? haix. still, sec4 is a badbad yr for me, or at least e first half is..

29 ApR.
last "normal" school days before e exams. *notyetstudy* will be taking e exams in e hall ar? me sitting 1st or 2nd row. hehe. at least it'll b easy for me to find seats, n i wont blurblur de sit wrong place. =) mrs towy's [how to spell?] tuition is so fun. although i always answer e qn wrongly, but it's okay, it's alrite, everything will turn out fine. or at least i hope so. *alwayslookonebrightsideolife*

`oh. so this is e reason, so u can do worse? i hope it's not. i trust it's not.


sad


haix. comp got virus. got spyware AGAIN. dont like it. cant even excess to my own blogspot page. will get kick out from there de. dont know when it will completely stop me fr using e comp. haix.

today went to swim with maio sia.*swimswim* then went to orchard. then went to westmall, then to victor's house to "study". in e end we didnt really study much. talked bout our own prob, i meant e BGR thing. mayb, we're jus not o e age to talk bout this. it's jus tt we're too young i guess.
is Love simple or complex?

yest went to orchard w vicky to get hh his b'day present b4 gg for tuition. got 2. =) e second one is better. more special. secret for now. it was nice, to have a break fr studies[not like i did study real hard] n to go out. me n vicky got our white band each becos o hh's present.

Childrens. NOT, i repeat, NOT all o them hav e kind n innocent character in them! few days ago, i was at tiong bahru plaza. i was walking ard slowly, looking, when suddenly i felt someone behind was pushing me. i turned. i saw a girl, probably 5 or 6, wearing kindergarden uniform, poking me with her pencil. i tot "huh?". then she walked up to me. *me in e bluR state* then she used her pencil n draw a line on my blouse. *stunned* she was not laughing. she was having that hate look on her face. then she walked away, turned back once or twice, w me still struck at where i was when she drew on me. if not for e pencil mark left on my blouse, i would have tot that i'm dreaming again. wat did i do to make her draw on me? e most was only becos i blocked her way, unknowingly...........................................

sometimes i wish i was different,
having a different character,
a different attitude,
but i just cant.
~i wish to b accepted.

R u going this to make me give up or is this really how u felt?
IDONTWANT


exams soon ar? *bluR*
amaths! phy! chem! humanities[lit+ss]! eng! chin! emaths!
-[inorderofdifficultities]-[chim]-

1 wk ago, we were still preparing for our syf.. were working hard on it..
so far, TLDDS got gold, MLDDS got silver, Band got silver. i heard band members cried cos they didnt get gold, but got silver. we, choiR were sO happy w a silver. y is there such big a difference? i hope it's not becos we wasnt gd.. N dont LOOK DOWN on choiR! *[not as if i can do anything also]*

i dont know..
did i ask too much?
should i not even care?
but................
i dont wana lose u...... as a fren.
it's u who had helped me thru all tt.
`she'sbornon16ApR


we've gotten SILVER.
spelled it all out
S.I.L.V.E.R.
cheers!

i cant believe i cried when i heard e results. choiR no.125 Gan Eng Seng School. SILVER.
weiyue was beside me.. she kept telling me not to cry le. now i understand. hard work put in. i guessed no matter wat result i would have cried. so KUA ZHANG rite? aiyo. if bronze is v sad. SILVER is v happy~!

fri. we started w stretching once we reach e music rm. still did sit-ups sia.. warm-ups. then altos started our make-up after tt. sop1 & sop2 continued w their warm-ups. then, later all were doing their make-up or hair. meriana needed gel. 2 o us went back to class. stares. nice or not nice me dont know. my toe pain. red red le. went back ms khor ahready reach. we quickly went to join them, my hair still not done. in e end only tie w clips. then sing. no scare at all. kept my phone in bag. left for e Singapore Conference Hall.

we've got 2 buses. me went onto e 2nd bus. *we've to do it* i was told to get them rdy straight when we reach there. me ran in my high-heels. 1st bus ppl some went toilet. got them to come out. "formation formation" all-rdy, we walked up e stairs. reach e tuning rm. sing. ms khor said v well sang. after only 10 mins[they timed us], we walked towards e stage.

"shhh[no more talking.]" excited. yea, not scare at all. walked up. saw many ppl[not only e judges leh!], but still less than i'd expected. cos ms khor had said tt there'll b a LOT o ppl. i tot it will b filled. haha. okie. yar. then walked up. me 2nd row de. strange. 2nd row de ppl walk in first.

then. we were so packed together. so near i mean. then we started singg. Sunset. Getaran Jiwa. Cantate. ms khor smiled after EVERY song we sang. from her face, i can sense. she really is v happy. *smilex*

then we walked down e stage. went to sit down. smiled at each other. we knew we did our best. our v best. even, even if we get bronze, we did our best. then listened to e next choiR. their version o sunset is so different. we did better anyway. then there was a break. i walked ard. asked senoirs. we did v well. me collected e original scores.

then. results. wat if we get bronze? "school no.125. Gan Eng Seng School. SilveR." *stunned* then i became ji dong. too happy. all e hard work we had put in. it became true. cried. toO happy. after one more sch's results, senoirs n our teachers[mrs james, mdm rose] came. hughug. on e bus, we spelled e word silver. so high. so happy. reach e school, saw mr giam. told him we've gotten a silver. then, we went to e 2nd floor n e stairs to take pictures. ^^

had cheers, went back to e music rm. shu han was still practising his piano. seroyen kept bullying me. really. we[rosemary, rui jun, xiu ting, see kia, yu feng, xiao hui, seroyen, shu han] went to tiong bahru. on e way, seroyen jus tell me n xh to take his shoes n clothes. later he saw e traffic light green, then he ran across. e rest o us were still walking as usual. then. haha. we walked across another road then kept walking. turned back n look at him. haha. later i kana punished bout 1 million again. haha. anyway, shu han was e one who suggested tt we should kp on walking. me said better turn back le lar. surprised to c him to not v angry. scared le. haha. then he said 5 mins++ then counted how many sry i had to type. frightening. shu han saved my day by treating him a drink. =)

kfc. ate. rosemary, rui jun, xiu ting, see kia, seroyen, shu han went movie. me, yu feng, xiao hui went walk walk ard. saw abriestella, jeanette, wenna. they'd jus finished their 2.4km. anyway, shortly after we3 walk ard, i had to go bm passed my shoes n clothes to mum n sis. tuition. dose off on e bus. luckily, i didnt missed any stops. reach there bout 20 mins earlier. saw no one ard. later c back, all o them, except yee, was already waiting outside. me felt me was really tired.
did stretchings. then tuition begins.

ended. called rosemary. they were still ouside. me wana join! called hm. me mum dont allow. *how can like that?!* haix. v sad. we've silver leh. haix. then went back hm, wanting to throw a temper. in e end, i jus showed a black face. didnt shout. that was e best i could do. my sis told me me family got prob. me? only knew how to play.. i dont like myself. me dumb. him. no. sad. slp le nxt day will b alright.

" Believing in yourself is 50% of e fight.. 50% comes from yourself. Great power comes w great responsibilities. "

+s.i.l.v.e.r.+


choiR still have got wed n thurs practices to go b4 friday: 2 more practices!

to everyone [any performing arts!] gg for SYF:

JIAYOU!


apple for fruit friday today.. i love apples!
longggggggggg day.. but e best was choiR.. we practised in e heritage hall n [yea!] we'd got them rite, correct i meant..

Pamela, fay, fahana, was here today.. choiR today was.. mm.. a bit messy? i mean a bit wana talk? this is jus e style o choiR lar.. talk talk N talk.. we shouted n shouted.. once i shout, "whoever still continue to talk will stand in front n sing solo" i think tt was e most effective command i'd ever gave.. total silence followed after tt[although later they talk AGAIN].. haix.

then tt seroyen still wana make me laugh.. he's a nice person lar, w v sensitive feelings.. he's so sO pRo pianist.. play so well.. but,,,,, he dont like to do warm-ups.. haix. cant force rite? luckily we still have our miss prefect, abriestella to do them, n e clavinova to transpose e tune.. "jus have ONE indian chef will do"

talk to e sec4 a while.. our shoe's $10 will b coming fr e chijmes concert 3 yrs ago.. they sHouLd b happy bout that.. WE HAVE TO GET AT LEAST A SILVER
we'll jus have to, n I BELIEVE WE CAN 8ApR fRi.. *~i believe i can fly, i believe i can reach e sky. think about every nite n day, spread my swings n fly away.. we'll fly n soar above in open skie.......... mount w wings we'll fly~*

*spirited-away: cantate. feelings: getaranjiwa. smile??: sunset*

oh yar.. then pam told ser not to shout to e choiR or else ppl will only think that he is a clown.. haix. he wu jie her.. he tot he wasnt appreciated.. at least, at least he still play.. then.. performance for mr giam.. i was SHOCK when he actually said that we sang well *dotx* dont think much le.. if we can get silver, then we'll b saved.. if not..........................

think that choiR members did well.. continue to JIAYOUxxxxxxxxxxxxxx!
new choiR uniform, new choiR shoes..

*I LOVE CHOIR*
*pAsSiOn for singing*
*kingshaw: once a victim always a victim*